22nd December 2022 This is a big moment. The reason why I haven’t written a single journal entry this week is because I poured all my energy into finishing off the PhD. I got clarification on a theoretical issue from the internal examiner, but after that, I decided rather than…

14th December 2022 Every morning between 3am and 5am, Indi asks to go outside. She always asks me, because I sleep more lightly (T can sleep through her yelling) and I have more stuff on my bedside table for her to knock off. At 3am this morning, she demanded to…

14th December 2022 I would like to write something, but I think this is going to be incredibly hard. Every other day, I think, “Oh, this is the thing I’ll be talking about in therapy this week!” Then a day rolls by and I’m already on to the next thing…

In March 2022, I was diagnosed as autistic. I was 43 at the time, but it wasn’t a surprise. About six months later, I had the bright idea of setting up a blog on Medium to explore what it’s like getting a diagnosis later in life. I wrote one introductory…

8th December 2022 Since the last session, a lot has happened. I’ve got no idea how to set this out because it all feels huge, and it all feels like something I have to process. There’s background, there’s everything that happened after 2006 when H and I “broke up” (what’s…

I write to you now from the middle of a battle. Somewhere deep in a forest, I’m pitted against some awesome monster, a creature of green feathers and red face, wings flapping. The creature demands that I write 700 words in just over two hours, although at the speed I…

Oh, at last! A good week. It feels a little dangerous to say that, as if the gods will notice and dump something awful on me. But even at a time when eggs and vegetables are rarer than dodos, wearing every hoodie I own during a cold snap is more…

Author’s note: Apologies for the delay in getting this out. You can catch episodes every Friday on the blog. My titles get longer every week. Expect by the end of the year the titles to be the whole entry. I wasn’t expecting to end up here. I’ve been putting off…

Last week, one of my favourite blogs dropped this article into my inbox. At the time, I was having A Week Of It, so I didn’t have time to read it immediately, but the title really caught my eye. https://writerunboxed.com/2023/02/03/an-anxiety-episode-changed-my-disbelief-in-writers-block/ It’s a great article; you should totally drop whatever you’re…